Sometimes when I think about how when God made us he must have had an ongoing recipe book. We’re unique, but we all have some certain characteristics, hobbies, likes, dislikes, features in common. I love it.
When God made me, I think his hand slipped with his bottle of ‘ground temper’ and he ran out of ‘extract of patience.’
For instance, I have recently noticed I have a severe case of road rage. No it’s seriously going to get me shot one day. I work in Coalville/Oakley depending on the day. This road rage was starting to trouble me so I mentally counted how many times I got frustrated or (and most likely) cussed somebody out driving home. It was well over five. That’s quite ridiculous considering it’s a 30 minute drive. Humbled and consciously making an effort to work on my swearing and temper issue it has come to my attention I have just a dash too little of patience.
On the fourth of July my mom and I braved the craziness of a nearby town for a firework display. Needless to say traffic was unbearable and it took us 30 minutes to move 10 feet. When merging with another lane of traffic, an older gentlemen in a very flashy sports car wasn’t going to let my mom and I in. Instead of just ignoring him I proceeded to roll down my window to tell this guy exactly what he was, how he was wrong, and the directions back to driving school. Luckily, my mom stopped me before I really embarrassed myself.
Example number three. My hair got severly chopped off in January, and so ready for a change I had vowed not to cut it ever since. Despite the occasional mullet trim, because let’s be honest nobody’s ever bringing that bad boy back, I popped Bioten pills like candy and waited anxiously.
February. January was too painful to document.
March: Long live the Unicorn!
April: The Crepery Crepes are incredible!
May: Long live biotin!
June: The uphill trudge
July: Light at the end of the tunnel.
As you can see it’s been a LONG LONG LONG LOOOOOONNNNNNNGGGGG process. I’m a farm girl, nature enthusiast, ponytail and baseball caps LOVER. I’m chomping at the bit to have my hair back.
I got really discouraged and almost chopped it off again, but luckily I didn’t. I thought the pills and supplements I was taking would make my hair grow back practically overnight. While they helped immensely, I still had to wait my turn. My hair’s not back yet, but I’m finally seeing the end of the tunnel and am SO glad I stuck it out instead of chopping through the ugly phases.
Now onto more serious parts of my post. Having a mom that has cancer come back 3 times in 2 years, has had to go through chemotherapy 3 times in 2 years, have unbelievably faith shaking, life-altering, self-changing stress for two years is definitely not easy on the patience category.
I’ve mentioned this before but the first time my mom got sick I was so angry. All I did was cry, eat my feelings (high five for oreos), and ask God why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?
I never got my answer, I still haven’t. Every day I think I have a bit more of an idea of why my mom has gone through this trial, but I’ll honestly probably never know until I’m at Jesus’ feet.
My family has had to learn patience, trust, courage, and even more patience. Patience with people of this earth, patience with doctors, ourselves, and this trial. I don’t know what is going to happen in the future, no one does. I do however, know that with patience, love and faith in God and his son Jesus Christ we can do it.
If there’s anything I’ve taken out of this trial, it’s how to be more patient, which believe me is a miracle. Now, seeing my road rage example I still have progress to make with patience but I’m getting there.
Ultimately we don’t see the full grand spectrum of our lives like God does. He sees it all and he knows what’s best for us and best for our future. Having patience and faith in him won’t change the trial, but I testify it will make it easier.
My favorite scripture comes from 1 Nephi 1:20
“…but behold, I, Nephi, will show unto you that the tender mercies of the Lord are over all those whom he hath chosen, because of their faith, to make them mighty even unto the power of deliverance.”
God is great my friends, his gospel is great and we are so lucky to live the blessed life we have. Never forget that.