Life’s too short to live in fear
In the midst of finals week, okay the last two weeks have been “finals week” for me, I’ve done a lot of reflecting. August seems like it was half a lifetime ago, but I can clearly remember how fearful my life was. For the first week of school, I literally threw up everyday after making myself sick from fear. Obviously I don’t handle my stress well. I was afraid of everything. I had heard all of these horror stories about the classes I was in, I was homesick, lonely, self-conscious, unsure, and vulnerable. It was the perfect time for Satan to pounce.
Looking back, I realize how despite my efforts, he got a pretty strong hold of me. It wasn’t until weeks later, when I was receiving positive feedback that I realized just maybe I could do this. I wouldn’t have made it with-out my family (Sid, Stu, my parents, Diana, Mark, Tobi, Pyper, Dusty, and lil’ Paul Paul), or my friends-you know who you are:).
I’m sure I was quite the sight for my freshman roommates to see. But like I said, things soon got better. However, things didn’t necessarily get easier. In fact if anything they got harder, much harder. My attitude however got easier. It came to a point where I realized I couldn’t walk around everyday, constantly wondering what the heck I was doing with my life. Wondering if I had what it takes to make it in my degree, and thinking about quitting school every single day. I decided I did have what it took and I was going to do it.
I’m not perfect at this yet, and I probably never will be. I still struggle with things, and you know what I’m glad I do. It keeps me humble, it keeps me human, and it keeps me learning. But, I have learned that you really can do anything if you put your mind to it. Of course, you have to work your tail off to get there too. But, if it’s what you should be doing you’ll make it, you’ll be happy, and life will work-out just fine.
Guys, God is great. He lives, he loves us, he helped me through this incredibly difficult semester, and he’ll help me in the future too.
One of my favorite passages of scripture is 2 Nephi chapter 4. Nephi has some pretty powerful words to say about putting your trust in God.
So here’s to the struggles, fears, and insecurities I overcame this semester. Here’s to the struggles, fear, and insecurities you have overcome in your past. Life’ is WAY too short to live in fear, we just simply can’t do it. Keep your chin up, smile, and take it one step at a time. You never know what just might happen along the way.
“O lord, wilt thou encircle me around in the robe of thy righteousness! O Lord, wilt thou make a way for mine escape before mine enemies! Wilt thou make my path straight before me! Wilt thou not place a stumbling block in my way–but that thou wouldst clear my way before me, and hedge not up my way, but the ways of mine enemy. O lord I have trusted in thee and I will trust in thee forever. I will not put my trust in the arm of flesh; for I know that cursed is he that putteth his trust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm. Yea I know that God will give liberally to him that asketh. Yea, my God will give me, if I ask not amiss; therefore I will lift up my voice unto thee: yea, I will cry unto thee, my God, the rock of my righteousness. Behold, my voice shall forever ascend up unto thee, my rock and mine everlasting God, Amen.”